Just breath

“Cause I can feel you breathe
It’s washing over me
Suddenly I’m melting into you

There’s nothing left to prove
Devi, all we need is just to be
Caught up in the touch

The slow and steady rush
Devi, isn’t that the way that love’s supposed to be
I can feel you breathe
Just breathe”
- Faith Hill, Breathe

 

 

 

 

Psihofizična znanost Kriya Yoge

Mahavatar BabajiBesedilo spodaj sem napisal pred vsaj 18 leti in, če se prav spominjam, je bil članek objavljen takrat v reviji Aura ali Karma.
Veliko se je spremenilo v mojem življenju v tem času, ampak sama Kriya Yoga je zame še vedno kraljica psihofizičnih metod postopnega dviga in razvoja zavesti. Pot Kriye je najvišja, zame.

Here we go:

Veliko ljudi je spoznalo Kriya yogo v knjigi Paramhansa Yoganande, “Autobiography of a Yogi”. Sama tehnika Kriya yoge je sicer opisana tudi v tej knjigi, a vendar, po mojem mnenju, preveč zavita v tančico skrivnosti. Učenja željnim se morda vprašanja postavljajo kar sama: Kaj je pravzaprav Kriya yoga? Kje izvira? Je res tako učinkovita, kot piše Yogananda? Zakaj je dostopna le izbrancem? Kako priti do nje?

Pripravljenost na spremembe?

Kriya yoga se omenja v Svetih spisih kot tehnika za transcendentalno sadhano, katero je Lord Shiva dal Parvati, svoji ženi in učenki. Tisočletja je bila namenjena le redkim in šele v začetku 20. stol. lansirana v javnost. Glavni “krivec” za to je legendarni večni mladenič izpod Himalaje, Sri Babaji.

Novi časi prinašajo tudi drugačne poglede na tradicijo prepovedi, ki so Kriyo skrivale pred ljudmi. To se v zadnjih letih odraža tudi pri nas, predvsem pa v življenju tistih, ki so se Kriye naučili in jo sprejeli za svojo. Zame je Kriya yoga najlažja in najhitrejša tehnika samorazvoja. Kaj pa o njej pravijo veliki Učitelji?

Swamy Satyananda Saraswaty iz biharske šole yoge (učitelj Swamya Nirjanjananda):

“Tehnika Kriya yoge je najučinkovitejša metoda za postopno dvigovanje zavesti od vseh, ki so kdaj koli nastale. Ta tehnika je dokaj napredna in premočna za nepripravljenega aspiranta.”

Swamy Parabhananda, ki je s to tehniko dosegel osvoboditev:

“Kriya yoga je najpreprostejša tehnika za doseganje popolnosti. Aspirant poleg nje ne potrebuje nič drugega, njegov napredek pa je popolnoma odvisen od lastnega napora.”

Sam Sri Babaji (na fotografiji zgoraj) pa pravi:

“Pot Kriye (Kriya v Sanskritu pomeni akcija, delovanje) je najvišja. Nič se ne more primerjati s Kriyo. Pravzaprav, nič razen Kriye sploh ne obstaja. Združevanje katerihkoli dveh ali več stvari je Kriya yoga. Popolnost pri delu je prava Kriya yoga.”

Veliko ljudi bi morda  rado napredovalo kar najhitreje, koliko pa nas je pripravljeno soočiti se s samo-slepitvami in z negativnostmi v nas samih in predvsem sprejeti potrebne spremembe v načinu življenja?

Bližnjica oz. kako deluje

Večina tehnik samorazvoja teži k preseganju fizičnega telesa (in tudi tozemskih stvari) in le redke istočasno poudarjajo tudi njegov izreden pomen. Medtem, ko večina pristopov pripravlja teren za dharmično življenje (srečno in izpolnjeno življenje v skladu z Resnico) z veliko teorije, manj prakse in z upoštevanjem  pravil igre (Božje zapovedi, Yama in Niyama v Yogi, regulativni principi Svetih spisov, to smeš – tistega ne itd…) ter z gradnjo intelektualnega razumevanja svoje narave, Kriya yoga neposredno razvija dele možganov in določene centre v eteričnem telesu, ki so za tako življenje dejansko odgovorni. Proces je torej obrnjen. In to zares pomeni pravo bližnjico oz. poenostavljeno pot do sreče.

Kriya yoga (kakor jo učimo v našem Inštitutu) temelji na natančnem poznavanju strukture in delovanja eteričnega (in s tem tudi fizičnega) telesa in zajema kombinacijo določenih telesnih položajev (asane, mudre in bandhe), vodenja pozornosti (uporaba volje) in popolnega yogijskega dihanja. Je prijetna za izvajanje in ob upoštevanju danih navodil popolnoma varna.

Kriya yoga pri nas

Pri nas ta tehnika iz mojega vidika, prav zares, še ni poznana. Po svetu jo učijo na različne načine in tako obstaja tudi veliko pogledov nanjo. Če malce parafraziram Satyanando Saraswatija, ne glede na to, pa ima Kriya yoga v sebi moč, da aktivira človekovo zavest na tak način, da razvije svoje najboljše kvalitete, vstopi v najintimnejši odnos z naravo in drugimi, postane zavesten svoje resnične identitete ter najgloblje povezanosti z Bogom in Njegovo kreacijo. Le tako lahko postane zares srečen. Zakaj bi jo še naprej skrivali?

Kakorkoli že, lepo je, da lahko Kriya yoga končno postane dostopna vsem, ki so nanjo pripravljeni, bi jo znali ceniti in imajo resničen interes zanjo.

Edmond C.

Podrobnosti na www.KriyaYoga.si

 

Why We Shout In Anger

Why We Shout In Anger

A Yoga Master who was visiting river Ganges to take bath found a group of family members on the banks, shouting in anger at each other. He turned to his disciples smiled and asked:

‘Why do people shout in anger at each other?’

Disciples thought for a while, and one of them said, ‘Because we lose our calm, we shout.’

‘But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.’, said the Master.

Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the Master.

Finally He explained:

‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.

What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small…’

The Master continued:
‘When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’

He then looked at his disciples and said:
‘So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant. Do not say words that distance each other more, or else there may come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.’

:)

Ana Liza

AnalizaAna Liza, nekdaj moja zelo dobra prijateljica, dandanes pa zgolj spomin na stare in preživete čase.

Pogovor med Živo in Ana Lizo:

Živa:
Ana, zanimivo mi je pogovarjati se s teboj tako na splošno, a pozornost bova usmerili na tvoje osebno dojemanje relevantnih tematik, zanimivih za bralce tega Bloga.

Ana Liza:
Ja, kar logično. Ti kar vprašaj.

Živa:
Kako se bi opisala, kako doživljaš sebe?

Ana Liza:
Enostavno: sem izobražena in uspešna ženska v najboljših letih.
<širok nasmeh>

Živa:
<nasmeh>
Kaj si po izobrazbi?

Ana Liza:
Doktorica filozofije, moja disertacija je bila pod naslovom “Znanost, religija in filozofija: primerjalni študij”.
V študij sem vključila tudi razne empirične, znanstvene ter mistične metode (tarot, astrologija, I-ching, rune, human design, numerologija itd…)

Živa:
Da.
Reciva, da želiš spoznati sebe ali druge v podrobnosti, kako bi to storila?

Ana Liza:
Pa to počnem vsak dan! Zanašam se na razumevanje same sebe, notranjih procesov, lastnosti osebnostnih tendenc ter tendenc iz preteklosti. Najraje pogledam v svojo rojstno astrološko karto v kombinaciji z nekaterimi drugimi pristopi.

Živa:
In kako ti to pomaga v vsakdanjem življenju?

Ana Liza:
Zelo uporabno je, ker mi ti pristopi vedno pomagajo pri odločitvah, pri zanašanju nase. Recimo, ravnokar imam malce sušno obdobje glede odnosov, ker je moja Venera kvadrat Luna in sedaj res ni pravi čas za zaljubljanje in podobno. Malce moram počakati (še par tednov) in potem bo vse v redu.

Živa:
No, če sva natančni, se zanašaš na zvezde in planete, ne nase. Ja?

Ana Liza:
Ja, pa saj to je isto.

Živa:
<presenečenje v očeh>
Aha, ok.
No, meni recimo sedaj prihaja na misel pregovor: Kdor bulji v zvezde, stopi v vsako cestno lužo. Hehehehe. :)

Sprašujem se pa, zakaj bi kdor koli čakal na kar koli?

Ana Liza:
Hahahahaa
Dobro, kaj pa porečeš na to, da imamo vsi, torej tudi ti, dejansko določene prirojene lastnosti, ki so jih ob rojstvu na nas pustili planeti oz “zvezde” po tvoje.
Recimo zate vem, da si zelo zelo čustvena, rada imaš potovanja ter da te v prihodnosti čaka novo partnersko razmerje, med drugim.

Živa:
Aha, ok.
No, ne vem za druge ljudi, ampak kar se mene tiče, je najbolje, da o mojih lastnostih vprašaš mene, ne pa črke na papirju ali v kartah. Namreč, zavedam se, da imam izbiro in, ne, nisem vedno čustvena, potovanja mi niso res preveč blizu ter nimam nobenega namena vstopati v novi odnos. Tako, da si malce zgrešila. :)

Ana Liza:
Izbira?
Kako to misliš?
Recimo v tarotu je izbira v bistvu prikazana na adutu Magus in to je Merkur kvadrat Saturn v 5 hiši in…

Živa:
Ja ti bom kar skočila v besedo na tem mestu.
Ne govorim o opisu moje izbire ali o simboliki, ki lahko predstavlja Izbiro. Ne govorim o tem.

Govorim o Živi in vedno sveži Izbiri, ki je zame lastnost Zavesti in s pomočjo katere se lahko sproti identificiram (ali pa tudi ne) z določenimi komponentami moje notranjosti in po svoji lastni volji vlagam energijo v kar koli hočem. Govorim o direktni zaznavi Življenja, brez posredovanja simbolov, arhetipov, kart, planetov itd…

Ana Liza:
Ja vidim, da imaš precej izraziti Mars v svoji natalni karti in tudi Sonce. Sonce namreč daje luč in moč ter energijo…

Živa:
Ja, ja ,ja, ok.
Torej po tvojem izbira v bistvu ne obstaja?

Ana Liza:
Me danes kar naprej prekinjaš.
(v oblačku svojih misli: halo!!)
Hmm.
<daljši premor>
Torej, če pogledava po najnovejši znanosti Human Design-a, je v bistvu najbolj pomembna fizična realnost, telo. Seveda so odločitve prisotne, ampak recimo Generator se odloča drugače od Projektorja, in Manifestor rabi več časa za odločitve. In še to je povsem odvisno kateri center imaš definiran.

Živa:
Aha ok.
(v oblačku svojih misli: ma o čem sploh govori?!)

Ana Liza:
Kaj pa ti, kako ti doživljaš samo sebe? Vem namreč, da si Projektor.

Živa:
Projektor? Kaj je to?
No, kakor koli že, doživljam se kot Živo bitje, ki ni prav zares omejeno s temi tremi telesi (mental, astral in fizis). Lahko izberem in se poistovetim z določenim čustvom ali pa tudi ne. Lahko se prepustim vplivom okolja ali pa tudi ne.
Zavedam se, da sem transpersonalna duša, nerojena in nesmrtna, onstran materialnih vplivov. Sem eno z Izvorom vsega. In ne rabim informacij o svojih lastnostih iz knjig ali analitičnih metod, ker se poznam, skozi svojo lastno neposredno izkušnjo.

Ana Liza:
Hmm.
(v oblačku misli: ti šment, pa kaj ta naklada tle?)
Projektorji rabijo informacije od zunaj, povabila, darove, da lahko res zaživijo.

Živa:
Aha ok. No, jaz imam mnoge trajne lastnosti, vsaj kar se mene tiče, in ne rabim drugih za to, da zaživim. Zame življenje izvira iz Življenja, ne iz materije ali materialnih vplivov ali od drugih.

Ana Liza:
Ne razumem.

Živa:
Aha ok.
Jaz se recimo raje zanašam nase, na svoje notranje vire moči in na notranje potenciale. Ti potenciali so povsem neodvisni od vplivov okolja, drugih in zvezd (ali arhetipov, kombinacij črk in številk itd…). Ni mi potrebno čakati, da mi nekdo nekaj ponudi, da bom aktivna. Jaz sem aktivna tudi brez drugih, enostavno zato, ker mi je to ok. Ne potrebujem motivacije od zunaj.
Življenje je zame tista temeljna realnost, ki osmišlja moj celoten obstoj, ne glede na minljive vplive okolja. Je trajna stalnica moje notranje psihične dinamike in je neodvisna od vsega “zunaj”.

Ana Liza:
(v oblačku misli: ufa, pa kaj ta hoče od mene?!)
Veš, sem bila na eni delavnici NVC-ja in smo se učili sočutno se vživljati v druge.
Če te prav razumem, ti je pomembno življenje, neodvisnost in aktivnost?

Živa:
Ja, Ana Liza, tudi to je samo približek moji Resnici, veš. Analiza, sicer zelo sočutna, ampak vendarle analiza. Namesto na karte in zvezde se sedaj zanašaš na svoje intelektualne in čustvene vire in se skušaš vživeti vame?
Življenje je onstran tvojih in mojih materialnih kapacitet in totalno presega recimo moje poskuse vživljanja, enostavno zato, ker je že prisotno. Vselej, vedno, za vedno. Ni nobene potrebe po “vživljanju”, ker samo Življenje že obstaja.

Tako jaz doživljam to, no.

Ana Liza:
(v oblačku misli: fak, zdej mam pa dosti tega)
Čakaj malo, torej zavračaš vse, kar ni po tvoje Živo kao?
Zavračaš torej tarot, astrologijo, human design, I-Ching, delo z runami, numerologijo – skratka vse, kar se ne poklapa s tvojo percepcijo?!

Živa:
Ne, Ana Liza, ne zavračam tega. Le stavim ne na to, to je vse.
Zame je Življenje toliko Živo in Sveže in polno, no, Življenja, da ga metode, ki si jih naštela niti pod razno in niti v sanjah ne morejo prav zares izraziti. In zato se ne prav zares zanašam na te metode. Mi lahko kaj ponudijo, kar mi Življenje v Srcu ne more?
Direktna zaznava Življenja v Sebi je tisto, kar presega take in drugačne poskuse opisovanja in kategoriziranja.

Zavedam pa se, da je tako dojemanje in življenje precej drugačno od tistega, ki temelji na analizi in na kategoriziranju ter predalčkanju. Kar se mene tiče, je prevzemanje totalne odgovornosti zase tukaj ključnega pomena.

Brez popolnega prevzemanja odgovornosti in sprejemanja ter v bistvu predanosti Življenju v Sebi in aktivnemu življenju v skladu z Njim – kaj ostane? Ostane morda zanašanje na simboliko, take in drugačne predalčke, avtoritete in info iz takih in drugačnih (analitičnih?) metod?

Kar je seveda povsem v redu, vsak deluje na podlagi svojega stanja zavesti.
Ampak none for me, tnx.
:)

Na misel mi tudi prihaja vprašanje, zakaj naj bi se omejevala na zgolj določene aspekte sebe in svojih potencialov. Srce in Življenje v meni je Neomejen Potencial, ki lahko Žari na cel spekter načinov, ne zgolj na tiste, ki jih “predpisujejo” prej omenjene metode.

Ana Liza:
(v oblačku svojih misli: tristo kosmatih, sploh me ne razume)
Ehm, nisem povsem prepričana, da si me prej razumela, ko sva govorili o tvojih lastnostih po natalni karti, veš. Imam občutek, da ne razumeš zares pomembnosti astroloških vplivov.

Živa:
Aha ok.

Zaključiva počasi?

Ana Liza:
(v oblačku misli: yes, please)
Da, v redu.
Hvala za pogovor.

Živa:
Hvala tebi.

 

:)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Let it go

Seems to me Elsa the Frozen Queen is pretty much free from inner oppression:

“Let it go, let it go.
And I’ll rise like the break of dawn.
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone
Here I stand, in the light of day.

Let the storm rage on!
The cold never bothered me anyway…”

Go, Elsa, Go!!

(Slovene version below)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wilber map: typical statements :)

Well, I am being playful so lets take a look at the Wilber map and typical statements from each level:

Mental Ego:
My daughter, well, no doctor of science will ever be good enough for her.
(this actually crossed my mind a few times, LOL)

Authentic level:
Patience is just procrastination without anxiety.
:)

Subtle level:
We will all die, yes?
Well, I suggest we make peace with our various Gods and just go.
LOL

Causal level / Vedanta Nondual:
I used to be lonely, but now I am alone.
<deep sigh>
LOL

Buddhist Nondual:
What’s been felt,
What’s been known,
Never shined through in what’s been shown.
Always free.
Never me.
So I dub thee nonexistent.
<empty silence>

LOL

 

Embracing the ego (III.)

Embracing the egoAnd so, embracing ego & everything else inside the chest and head is what may as well be the single most important strategy for me, besides meditation, that is..

It is the power of human consciousness (which is far beyond body, emotions and thoughts) that does the work. It is the total Abstract Potential, The One Source of everything. Even more, IT IS everything, even anger, fear, disease, pain and pepsi. So why not embracing it?

(please, read the previous two Blogs on the subject, here: Embracing the ego >> and Emberacing the ego (II) >> )

I offer an interesting and quite relevant point of view for your consideration. It is a point of view of a Jiddu Krishnamurti (you can check out the whole text here >>)

Here we go:

Questioner: Is there any difference between awareness and that of which we are aware? Is the observer different from his thoughts?

Krishnamurti: The observer and the observed are one; the thinker and his thoughts are one. To experience the thinker and his thought as one is very arduous for the thinker is ever taking shelter behind his thought; he separates himself from his thoughts to safeguard himself, to give himself continuity, permanency; he modifies or changes his thoughts, but he remains. This pursuit of thought apart from himself, this changing, transforming it leads to illusion. The thinker is his thought; the thinker and his thoughts are not two separate processes.
(you can check out the whole text here >>)

I would like to close this “Embracing ego” series with the sharing of wisdom of one of my favorite Buddhists, Thicht Nhat Hanh.

If we replace word anger with the word ego (or any other element of inner psychological dynamics), well, that is more or less it.

Thank you for reading my Blog.
:)

Here we go:

 

 

Embracing the ego (II.)

Embracing the egoSome relevant new questions regarding the topic of dealing with the ego (please see my previous Blog on the subject, here >>) have arisen and I am grateful for it. It is a very serious and important topic for me and I am more than happy to write about it.

OK, here we go:

Q: In your Blog you say that there is no real need to renounce the ego. Most spiritual masters claim quite the opposite. Why do you think that is?

A: Well, thank you for reading my Blog. You rise a very good question. Thank you. I will try to explain my understanding of this important topic in as few words as possible.

Dealing with personal aspects of spiritual development is a matter of choice, in my opinion. It is all about the levels of psychological-spiritual identity development, you see. Some deal with personal levels and some do not.

Most truly liberated spiritual masters (say, Ramana Maharshi or Anandamayi Ma) are conveying their teachings from the level which they attained (the Causal or Nondual, both Vedanta nondual and the Buddhist one). And in most cases, the level which spiritual masters speak from is faaaaaaar above any personal level (Mental ego and Authentic levels). For example, my dear Anandamayi Ma is reported to have laughed when one of Her devotees came to Her in distress due to a death in his family.

In practice that may mean that a simple guy from the street will have a very hard time both understanding and implementing such teachings. An average level of attainment on this planet is not even the Authentic level, what to speak of the transpersonal ones, in my estimation. So go figure.

So, while from the highly liberated states of awareness (the Causal and Nondual) ego indeed seems like an illusion, from personal levels this can not be the case. Well, at least not for me. What it comes down to, in my experience, is what path one took to reach the purely transpersonal states of awareness.

I can not speak about the others, nor do I want to, and as far as I am concerned, my path is the Tantric one. That means, in real practice, not only in theory or on the intellectual level, that I deny nothing. In other words, the Tantric path is all about accepting, embracing and tolerating, well, everything.

Q: What do you mean by “accepting, embracing and tolerating, well, everything”? I don’t understand.
In practice, what does that relate to, please?

Yes. Again, excellent question. :)

Well, in practice that means that I am open to every single thought and emotion in my awareness. I resist or deny no troublesome experience from the past, for example. And, above all, I do not involve others in my dramas. I know perfectly clear that it is neuro-biologically impossible for others to directly trigger anything in my inner climate. So I do not bother with others in this regard.

There is only One Life for me, only One Living Consciousness that is simultaneously the Source or the Witness and the manifestation.

Well, there is only One Life, meaning that there is only One Being breathing in me. And my thoughts, emotions, intentions, fears, hopes, pain, regrets and aspirations are His thoughts, emotions, intentions, fears, hopes etc. There is no duality involved here. No separateness.

In fact, the ego is as real as it can get. It is no illusion, nothing is. All is Radiant, Alive and Eternal continuous Flow of Life. All is Divine, nothing is non-divine.

And that being the case, why on Earth would I want to deny anything? Everything is part and particle of the One Whole.
There is none else besides Him/Her.
See?

Q: Well, on the intellectual level, I get it.
In practice I think I am very much used to focus on the positive side in my life.

Yes, I hear you. I can relate, for I have been there. I was in self denial for the longest time, rejecting the personal aspects of my life. Basically that means that I was in relative pain most of the time.

Anyway…I do realize that the notion of embracing the pain, sadness, regrets etc. is a radical paradigm change for most of us. It is not a newly fresh notion, though. Tantra has been teaching this for thousands of years.

When the sadness (or any kind of “negative” emotion) arises, a “normal” and habitual reaction is to divert the attention to something else, or to seek out help with the aim of getting rid of it.

Well, what I am talking about here is that embracing the sadness, taking time to assimilate it, to integrate it into awareness is so much more effective in the long run. Human awareness is transpersonal, transcendental and has an enormous power and potential.

There is a source, a cause for all emotions and thoughts in our lives. And contrary to the popular opinion, that source is in our hearts. Humanistic psychology has labeled this, the needs or potentials.

From the Authentic level, I might say that our transpersonal nature wants to express itself, the Soul is trying to flow the Life into our lives and we can become aware of this Life by becoming aware of our innermost needs/potentials. When the needs or potentials are not really expressed, negative emotions manifest from within.

So the strategy I employ is to embrace all emotions and by embracing them, I can penetrate deeper into the Heart by becoming aware of the potentials or needs in my Heart.

And the Heart is not any heart, it is the Source of everything, it is the Causal self, the Eternal Being, which is only playing. It is all Lila, a play. And most of us seem to suffer because we are aware of neither the Player nor of the Play.

And the path, my path, to becoming and staying aware of the Player and the Play is to embrace the Play, to embrace and emphatically relate to the every single element of my inner life. And it works.

I would also like to invite you all to watch Wilber explain the Ego development. Some really good and important points he makes in this interview.

Here we go:

Embracing the ego

Embracing the egoIn this Blog I want to touch upon an important and controversial topic: dealing with the ego.

Ego in this context means the basic principle of human mind, which is a base of everyday personality. There is the mind and at the core of the human mind there is the ego – that basic notion of I and Mine (and I am me and you are you; my needs are mine and your needs are yours etc.) that is usually driving the car of our mundane and spiritual existence.

Various spiritual traditions usually offer only one option: cutting off the ego and everything that goes with it (attachment to power, money, sex, enjoyment etc.).

Christianity has an interesting opinion on the subject it seems and while maybe intellectually “sin” is an appealing concept, I don’t want to go there.

Buddhists seem to point in the same direction: transcend the mundane pleasures as soon as possible, for all life is in fact, suffering.

Most Hindu traditions (Vedanta doctrines: Jnana yoga, Bhakti yoga, Karma yoga etc.) suggest similar strategies: renouncing the ego is the way. Sri Ramana Maharshi himself has often spoken about the ego as enlightenment enemy number one.

I am not really familiar with the Islam teachings, so I will refrain from commenting that tradition.

New Age movement, well, their exclusive focus on the Light and Positive vibrations kind of rules the ego (with its negativity) out by definition, it seems.

It seems to me that all of the aforementioned traditions perceive ego as something negative, some kind of a burden that needs to be eliminated or at least ignored for the greater good, of course (greater good being spiritual awakening or at least one way ticket to heaven).

Even modern psychotherapy practice, in general, seems to be focused on eliminating the problems and personal issues forgetting in the process that eliminating negativity from inner psycho-dynamic climate is only one side of the coin.

Well, while most of population on this planet (and most of readers of this Blog, I take it) might subscribe to one or more than one tradition mentioned above, I would nevertheless like to rise these questions:
– What is the ego, really?
– If ego is a part of our mind and part of the whole being, why eliminate/negate/ignore it in the first place?

No, seriously, if the ego is a part of my whole being and psychological-spiritual identity (which actually is the case), cutting it off would amount to cutting off any other part of my whole being, would it not?

I have been down that road, you know. Surfing on the high waves of my previous spiritual attainments, I was dealing with my ego mindlessly and rather ruthlessly. Like a jealous despot, invaded by the scarcity thinking, I was pushing away the most important elements of my inner climate: desires and attachments to material side of life. Desiring only transpersonal existence, I was ready to renounce everything that offered me a mundane scent.

What a fu**ing idiot I was. LOL

Of course, now that I am older and maybe a bit wiser, I can see that it was only a process. A process that needed to unfold as it has. No problems there.

Kali TantraWhat I would like to offer in this Blog, however, is that there is no real need to deny anything. No ego is responsible for any kind of trouble along the spiritual path. Besides, how can I really renounce something which I don’t really own?

Having a strong and flexible ego means I will very easily integrate it when the right time comes.

Ego is only as strong as my aversion to itself is. That means that ego as an obstacle is an obstacle only as long as I am denying it.

Ego and its fateful subjects: power, pleasure and attachment to pleasure, money, sex, good food, fancy cloths, fear, aversion, sadness,  anger etc. are only what they are: a part of the overall being.

There is no point in denying my desires, attachment to pleasure, money, sex etc. Why on earth would I wanna do that?!

If God is everything, isn’t S/He in pleasure as well?

My point is that denying anything really only adds to inner conflict. Scriptural injunctions, prohibitions, rules, hard core discipline etc. – is all of that really REALLY adding to the beauty and joy in the current flow of Life in my awareness?

The ultimate Truth, the Absolute state of awareness, according to self-realized individuals (Ramana Maharshi, Lahiri Mahasaya, Buddha etc.) is non-different from everyday life awareness.

So, my path is a Tantric one: embrace everything, integrate each and every thought, emotion, feeling and inspiration, no matter how mundane it may seem.

Offering tons and tons of empathy and love to my own “material ego”, lovingly sitting with and tolerating and integrating even the most incredibly negative tendencies in my inner climate –  in short, embracing the ego and all it stands for has brought me inner peace, freedom and joy and free flow along the all possible stages of human awareness (as per Wilber map).

All Life is One. Goddess Kali is Everything, All in All.
Embracing the ego may instigate or invite Her blessings. And when Her blessings manifest, everything just falls right into place. Easily.

One story I would like to share with you. At one of our group meditation rituals a dear friend of mine has shared his insights into levels of existence, he said:

“There is a soul which is incarnated in the body, conditioned by the limited brain functions and sensory input. And the Lila, the game of the Gods, the mundane existence, is unfolding in front of the soul. And the trick is to turn away from the Lila, from the mundane play and to direct the attention to the Originator and the Source of everything. Focusing on Absolute adds to the soul and her awakening.”

Well, our Sitaram has nailed it yet again.
:)

I would like to add, though, that there is no real need for turning away.
No need to turn my back to the mundane play, for the Absolute truth is also in the relative elements of the worldly play. And focusing on these elements of our relative existence, responsibly  and carefully employing advanced rituals – that is and has been called Tantra for ages. Embracing everything and integrating everything along the spiritual path.

I wish someone would have explained that to me years ago. It would have spared me a lot of needless suffering and self denial.

What about you?
How do you deal with your ego and mundane tendencies?

Anandamayi Ma’s mantra

AnandamayiSome time ago I have come into contact with the teachings of a modern Indian saint, for the lack of a better word. The term “saint” reflects neither Her state of consciousness nor Her enormous contribution to humanity, I feel.

My analytical capacities whisper that She dwarfs all of the gurus, saints and teachers known to me, save one.

Her given name was Nirmala Sundari (which translates to immaculate beauty) and latter on renamed to Anandamayi Ma (bliss permeated mother). How fitting both names are!

A lot of books have been written about Her and Her teachings mostly by Her close disciples and devotees (link to the e-store >>)

No words can convey the Presence, Mercy, Wisdom, Love and Guidance She commands. Not even death can touch Her Presence.

You can experience Her Presence by yourself, using Her mantra, with respect and surrender:
Aim Hrim Klim Anandamayiei namo namah

 

Dedication and surrender is the key, it seems, as we can see from the dialog below:

Several years ago, some Westerners came to Anandamayi and had a discussion with her, which throws an interesting sidelight on this question. This is the conversation they had:

Westerner: “How can I achieve Self-realization?”

A: “He is Self-effulgent, it is not you who can bring it about.”

Westerner: “Still, should we not make an effort?”

A: “Yes, the Self is hidden by a veil, you have to wear it down by your own exertion.”

Westerner: “What is the process by which this can be accomplished?”

A: “Do you really want Self-realization?”

Westerner: “Of course I do!”

A: “Then you are prepared to do exactly as I tell you without letting your judgement interfere?”

Here the gentleman became thoughtful and hesitated. He evidently was feeling uncomfortable. She smiled at him encouragingly. At last he said:

Westerner: “I regard Ramana Maharshi as my Guru, but I have not met him as yet. I intend going to Tiruvannamalai shortly.”

A: “Then you must do exactly as he instructs you, but do you really want Self- realization?”

Westerner:  “Certainly; have I not come all the way to India for this purpose?”

A: “For this and nothing else?”

Westerner:”For this and nothing else.”

Three times She repeated the question and three times the response was the same. She became very serious. Her voice was definite and powerful when she spoke:

“If this be so, if you want Self-Realization and nothing else, it does not matter whether you do as I tell you. If you really want this one thing only you will find a way, there is no doubt about it.”

- Anandamayi Ma